Is this thing on??

Considering I have been gone for a while I would be surprised if anyone is still with me.  My life has been through some ups and downs since I last checked in.  I have been living back in my hometown (tiny place in Florida) for about 2 years now.  I still wonder if it was the right thing to do, but in general things are easier here with help.

I ended up meeting and dating a guy.  He moved in with me and we were together for a year.  I look back at it now and I'm ashamed I let things get to where they got.  He is a severly disturbed person and there was no way I coild have fixed him. What started as a world wind romance ended in him physically abusing me and being escorted away by the cops to the nut house.

I'm in sort of a cleansing phase now.  Remebering who I am as an individual and how happy I am to be me.

I still am aspiring to finish school but circumstances have led me to something I never thought I would love.  I have been working with special needs kids and adults with severe developmental and behavioral issues.  I always thought I had no patience but turns out I has a large quantity stashed somewhere.  The kids are trying and violent and often just plain gross, but I love them and they have become my children in a way.

Hope this post finds you all well.  Who knows?  Maybe I will start popping up more again in the blogging world again.

Until next time...  kisses!

Brandi

I love Philosophy

So I am taking philosophy this term and I absolutely love it.  It would probably be better if more people actually got into discussions than the few that do, but whatever.  Its really not that big of a deal to me.  This is more my fun class.  I decided to do my project on the instinctive need for subcultures and I have acquired 3 kids as my partners in this project.  Was contemplating doing it alone, but there is one girl that sits next to me and she doesn't talk to anyone and I asked her if she would like to group up.  Them came the stragglers asking if they could join.  Not sure if I look like I know what I am doing or if I look like someone that would do all the work myself...  Probably the latter because honestly I would if I had to for my GPA to stay where it is.  Every one of them are 10 years younger than me and it makes me feel old.  So this should be fun.  I am surprisingly optimistic about the group.  Lets hope that optimism was well placed.  If not I have a backup plan to get an A anyway. :)

The slow and painful death of a laptop...

So finally after a downward spiral into unworkable one of our laptops has died; will not turn on, coming apart, insides are showing dead.  The other is surely not far behind.  The battery will not lock into place anymore and drops out at random.  It also runs so hot that I am constantly worried that the thing just may combust.  I caved a few days ago and bought a small laptop/netbook.  It was on sale on newegg and I had homework that I couldn't get done so it was an absolute necessity.  I got it today and it is adorable and super light.  Still sad about the loss of my old computers, but very much excited to have a new gadget.

Couped up on a Beach Day

Here I am at home doing homework... again.   I can't stand watching while everyone including my own little one takes off for the beach.  I know it has to be done but these summer classes are killing me.  I don't ever want to take a whole semester off again (though I may be forced to yet again for silly reasons that can not be avoided), but having summers to not worry about child care and condensed classes would be nice.  Hopefully I can take the books with me sometime this summer and get to the beach myself and get some sun.  Being confined to my house and deadlines its depressing.

Nose to the grindstone

Its me...  notoriously unreliable as usual with my posts.  I have been working hard at school, settled in my house, holding up a steady relationship, and dealing with a little boy going to school for the first time.  My life is hectic, but great.  Summer is going to be rough for me, but I will finish with an AA and be starting on my bachelors in fall.  I got a letter from my school this week and was notified that I am on the presidents list for outstanding academic achievement.  Apparently my community college has a presidents list instead of a deans list... whatever, it still kicks ass.  Who knew I would be so dead set on getting good grades.  Its a good feeling for someone that who could barely even concentrate and was okay with just getting by.  I would gladly let someone else do the work for the 2 math classes that I have going on right now though.  Other than that things have been boring...  highlight of my week off between semesters was reading the Hunger Games Trilogy and beating Dragon Age II on X Box...  I love that my man and I can veg out and have pajama days playing video games occasionally.  That's it for now.  I need to get back to a paper and about 20 hrs worth of math homework...